Her wrong

She was vulnerable 

She was touchable

She was always near

She stayed though she feared           

You were untrustworthy

You were Unfaithful    

You were Untruthful            

But she stayed

Though she swayed

You sieved her

You shook her,

your insincerity was too deep  

It moved her     

You drilled her       

She was sad

You took her for granted

Because she loved

Still she loved

But she learnt

Truly she did learn

It was hard

But she learnt how

How not to love the wrong person

She moved on 

Forgot you and loved again 

but it was her wrong 

Her wrong for loving you that much

She never loved that much again

Because you taught her how not to

MIDNIGHT MUSINGS

Hello

It is midnight and I have this strong desire to write to you...

We chat, giggle together and I have this image of you as the friendly friend who is down to earth, always good for a laugh, and always

ready to listen to everyone's problems.

But you don't share your own problems.

Are you scared that you'll say too much?, seem boring? Or you don’t want people to start

thinking: ‘So this is what you struggle with? Ouch" 

Hello Friend, You don't have to be in this room, this personal cell, or in the jail of your own fears.

Didn't you ever realise you can be greatly loved for showing and being the real you? Even with the ugly turn outs of the things you fight everyday..

Move beyond ‘I’m fine.’ Stop being evasive.. We all deserve someone who will always be there to listen to how we feel.

Its high time you found that person...

#Midnight #MidnightMusings

Courtesy my sugarbunny Taadewrites 

2015---an imperfectly perfect lesson teaching year for me

2015 was beautiful and ugly, it was perfect and imperfect, it was sweet and sour, it was sunny and cloudy. In each of these I put the positive before the negative because despite how the terrible times weighed me down and took over my being, the sweet times and sweet people that God planted in my life overshadowed every bit of the negativity that came with the year, God was faithful and ever true despite my sinful and unworthy nature. I single out 2015 as the year i learnt the most from outside the classroom, I learnt alot about life, I learnt also how much I needed God, I learnt alot about people and most of all I learnt a bountiful lot about myself. It was a year that as much as I cried so many times I still had so many reasons to put a smile on my pretty face. The rosy things and the prickly ones were definitely there to show me how much of a human I am. 

Still in 2015 I did alot of things that I'm not proud of but I did learn from them and pray not to go back to them. I betrayed myself with unnecessary sentiments when I wasn't supposed to but still I learnt never to do them again at least as the saying goes, "once bitten twice shy"... I was intrigued at the turn out of things in 2015, so many things happened that made me change how I reason, how I treat people and even how I treat myself, my weak points projected alot in 2015 and made me vulnerable to all sorts of abuse even from myself because it got to a point where I forgot I had an ounce of hope or strength in me, on many occasions I didn't stand for myself when I was battered with words and terrible things because of how I reason on alot of things in life. Amazingly I fell in love with the best man anyone could ever think of, he's my complete package...for one he was one of those who didn't allow me to give up, I made amazing friends whom I never thought I'd have, I learnt to stop being judgmental because I had been very judgmental in the last few years infact maybe law was my calling then. I learnt that I have a long way to go in life and the worst thing I can do is follow the crowd because I wasn't born to follow the crowd I was born to lead them or better still create my own world of exceptionality outside the crowd...there's alot more I learnt and alot more I unlearned but nevertheless 2015 was an exceptional year in my life and it's forever going to reflect in my calendar of "lesson learning years" , infact "tremendous lesson learning years", I hope 2016 will be awesome too with many lessons but not in tears like I had in 2015....

                                                           Anonymous---I can relate though